I need a Mistress to cure my condition

Yes, maybe I can be cured of this BDSM fetish thing that I “have”. When I look at some of these bondage predicaments online my fantasy says how nice it would be to stay like that for a really long time by a hot mistress…all comfy-cosy, helpless space out, erotic etc… for days. I wonder if I was kept like that for a while after it wasn’t so fun anymore, I don’t know how long that takes, and had a real long anxiety attack thinking about whether I would be “cured” of BDSM because I might think differently about it somehow? If I am cured I will be happy with a total vanilla girlfriend. Does anyone think this would work?