Bugger It! Time To Unleash A Rant

Alright, please bear with me as I open a few doors now; feel free to share your thoughts. Basically, I hate my life—every little bit of it—but let’s start from the beginning.

I’m a geek, and I only have about four friends. I’m flabby, shy, nervous as hell, and I’ve had a skin condition for roughly eight years that refuses to go away. I’m out of shape, and until last week, I played CS Source every waking moment of my life.

I also hate the fact that I’m so goddamn lazy I can’t be bothered to change any of it.

For example, right now at midnight in the dark, wearing just shorts and sitting on a flowery deck chair, I’m typing this surrounded by a pile of mess consisting mostly of clean clothes, magazines, and PC boxes. I have an exam in ten hours for a subject whose title I don’t even know yet.

I’ve never had a girlfriend because I haven’t had the guts to try talking to anyone beyond that casual “having a laugh/friends” level; I’m afraid of what might happen.

I actually haven’t spoken to my family today since I rarely go downstairs. And while all my friends are moaning about girlfriends and such, here I sit wishing for at least someone to talk to. Hell, I don’t even care much about looks in a girl; I’m looking more towards personality and fetishes:P.

Well, that’s the end of my rant. I’ve just let you all see the true pathetic form of Venom. Hope you enjoyed reading it:)

You can change everything you listed, get away from the computer, and believe in yourself. You can do anything if you set your mind to it. I think you're a better person than you give yourself credit for being. Sin:(