I'm Confused and Really Need Some Advice

Hi everyone, I’ll keep this brief. Basically, I’m a 19-year-old guy turning 20 in November. Since I was about 14, I’ve wanted to be a girl. Throughout my life, I’ve done weird things or acted differently without knowing why. Recently, I discovered I am bisexual and am almost certain I was born in the wrong body.

I’ve been looking into sex change options, even though it might be a bit early for me. I heard that people who transition after puberty often retain some masculine features, which makes me worry that it might be too late. No one around me knows yet, but I plan to tell them soon.

I’m not sure where to start. I was thinking of seeing a professional because I have no idea what’s going on and it’s starting to freak me out. At first, I thought it was just a fetish for dressing like women, but I really feel that in every way I should be a woman. Every time I see a girl in public, I wish I were her.

I love dressing as a girl (it isn’t part of a fetish) and doing everything the female way. The only reason I started with anal play is because I wanted to ‘be’ like a girl by being penetrated rather than doing the penetrating myself.

Lately, I’ve been depressed with life, and imagining my future as a woman seems much happier and more ‘me’. Any advice would be great because every day that passes without me taking action feels like another wasted day of misery.

Thanks:)