Opening Up: I Let My Thoughts Unfold

… dripping hot wax from the depths of my soul. while navigating anna’s site, i quickly came to realize that i am a total novice in the art of self-bondage.:oops: well, maybe it was more like confirming this realization rather than just finding out for the first time. although bondage (mostly self-bondage) has been a fetish of mine as long as i can recall, i’ve never gone to some of the lengths described in the scenarios. to be completely honest, i’ve never felt 100% sure about practicing self-bondage to any great extent; partly because i’m worried that someone might walk in on me, yet i’m also worried that if something terrible were to happen, no one would be there to help. i guess what i’m trying to say is; i need some guidance and instruction from someone who’s experienced in self-bondage. but i don’t know anyone i’d be comfortable enough to have monitor and/or walk thru a practice scenario with. i’m absolutely overwhelmed by the possibilities with self-bondage i’ve read about in a mere 2 hour period on and am extremely curious about many of the scenarios put forth, but i don’t think i’m anywhere near prepared enough; mentally, emotionally, or physically to do this alone. I know… it’s self-bondage, but… maybe it’s a bit of my submissive, “need-to-feel-vulnerable” side coming out. whatever it is, it’s certainly in the area of sexual confusion. any words of advice or guidance would be greatly appreciated, and anyone living around the Bakersfield/Fresno, CA area send me a message or email, please. maybe i just need to speak to and be around people who enjoy bondage/self-bondage.