Craving the Blowjob Experience

To begin with, I feel no physical pull toward men. They don’t seem cute, attractive, or particularly appealing to me. Yet when desire strikes, something shifts within my core. I’m definitely straight—not ambiguous about it at all.

There’s a powerful urge rising in me that makes me want to suck cock. The dildo is losing its appeal too. After my second long walk, whenever I watch porn and see someone giving head, I wonder how it would feel if it were me. Just thinking about myself performing oral on a stranger triggers both jealousy and arousal.

It’s strange because even when aroused, the physical attraction to men isn’t there. Still, seeing a woman with a cock in her mouth is enough to stir up intense emotions and envy that I can’t ignore. While I strongly desire to give head, I feel it works best if I’m dressed up and tightly bound as though being “forced,” or ideally both conditions met simultaneously. The image of an unknown man finishing inside me appeals greatly; I’d be unable to resist enjoying the experience fully regardless of my initial feelings since I haven’t climaxed yet to dampen that sexual high.

I believe Krono touched on this same idea before. Receiving a blowjob as a submissive role is one of my top turn-ons. However, it feels out of character for me otherwise. When embodying my female persona though, I get fully immersed in the act and don’t consider myself gay until after I’ve finished cumming and regained clarity. That’s when the reality sets in that what just happened seems rather gross by my usual standards.

Anyway, the core message here is this: I have a massive craving to pleasure a man via blowjob despite not being gay at all… Does any of this resonate with you? Just needed to share, though whether it makes sense depends on your perspective >.> I know what I mean after all:P Edit: Also, I’ve always wanted to test m

y deepthroating skills on a real dick instead of a hard rubber dildo. I’m quite convinced I could down the real deal, tbh!;)