The expensive challenge

For me, sessions feel dreamlike. I just attempted my first ‘The Costly Dare’ session (I had written the darn thing today and couldn’t wait to test it!) and found myself bargaining with my “inner mistress”. My performance was poor, yet I haven’t released still, remaining partially bound…so I am pleading for lenience:cry: Let’s just say I enjoyed myself. To be honest, the scenario didn’t quite meet the “Sane” criteria LoL! I’m still wearing my harness and corset, with legs tightly criss-crossed and straightened as much as possible while twisted from lying on my stomach typing this. For a description of the scenario reference here: the archived discussion OK, basically the first thing that happened was I tipped over onto my side, creating a nice S curve in myself after tethering my feet to my neck using a basic knot for the loop around the neck—the kind where you fold the rope in half and tie the ends so they don’t slip. This is about the only thing I trust putting over my head (when it comes to rope), relying on cross tension to secure rather than how tight the loop itself is. I had to skip my normal dog collar and chain, as the Costly Dare Machine specifically required rope. Also disappointing was the omission of the word “toy” in the scenario!! How cruel! Next, I really wanted to roll with my stomach down, bent and supported by my head, but couldn’t manage it. So, I rolled onto my back. With arms tied behind me and legs cross-tied, it felt very secure; my legs naturally bent into an open fold, and I felt as though I could be completely tormented without defense in that position. Alas, the wife is away on business. Ah well… “I could just about swear it has to be about 2:30,” I thought to myself… Next, I decided to sit on the edge of the bed… As my legs went down, I discovered I was fairly stuck there! My back was bent quite severely and I had a difficult way of inching back onto the bed. The other option wouldn’t have been pleasant; I could have fallen as best I could and inched toward my backup release. Not ideal. Speaking of releases… The primary is simply a pair of scissors sitting on the bed, unreachable while I’m stuck on the edge. Secondary is another pair tied to nylon cord hooked to my overhead rope light switch, stretching all the way down to the floor. When I can reach the rope, I can pull it toward me. So I made it back onto the bed. By this point, my neck was pretty well marked (I hope not rope burned), so I decided the loop had to come off the top of my head. I struggled to try and remove it; the loop is big enough to pass over but won’t reach fully over the crown during removal. During the “struggle,” I became very aroused:oops:. My wrist coil loosened by this point, and I realized I could wiggle my hands free—that’s a spoiler for me:? . I wiggled out and re-secured them in front through the loop that had been around my head…suddenly an idea hit me:!: If I put the loop back on, my hands will be secure behind my neck, and now I have enough movement to balance on my head! I get into a kneeling position and lower myself down… Only one problem…my elbows land first and go ahead of me slightly…my chest lowers and face plants firmly against the mattress.. my knees are solid on the mattress…the cross-tied legs are bent, I’m open…and back arched like never before…and I LOVE IT!! The cross tension from feet to neck hold pins me firmly…hands can’t move at all…breathing as a babe does when feeding, nose pressed to the mattress.. fully aware of harness… blindfold too… in retrospect this is why I do it. I love giving up complete control to another or just to the universe itself; it’s the only way I’ve ever found I can let go of my intellectual self. Finally, I manage enough leverage to raise myself up. Breathing was a bit problematic though. I resolve to hang elbows and head off the edge of the bed and maneuver accordingly… not the best idea as I’ll have to do a controlled fall to get to secondary release… left leg cramp strikes right at that moment!:shock: Force myself into sitting, bring loop over head… paradise lost LoL! Rub out cramp. Take off blindfold. Struggle out of wrist rope. Play with blindfold twisting it around wrists disappointedly and check clock. It’s 12:30. Started at 11:30. Stakes were $4:16 AM or $742.00 in new gear to help succeed later. Now I have to negotiate with inner mistress…can’t afford that LoL! Halfing it upfront. Scenario wasn’t sane. Can’t last that long in strict tie (without help, adjustments, etc.) That’s $358.00. Inner Mistress says playing unfair; retort is good thing it’s my inner mistress and I’m a switch. She can just as easily be my inner slave. Also get credit for an hour. That’s $282.00 owed now. $282.00…that will hurt! (May help succeed later though!) Anyone want to knock some off due to this report? (SERIOUSLY) Did I do a good job or is $282.00 reasonable? Thanks! Hope you enjoyed my experience just had (enjoyed it more!). Still slightly tied up… any credit for that? Feet still tightly bound…still corset’d and harnessed…haven’t released;-) Let’s see if I last until morning:oops: