a woman of war's end..?.

ogen asked me to keep a journal.. I didn’t want to, but ogen insisted so here I am. Why do we bother? I know ayame is gone now.. and kahechi too.. kahechi fell fighting the genma on her way here.. while ayame died at nobunaga’s feet.. he has to pay for this.. no, for all of them! Why do we keep doing it? I’m less than a day away from odani now. I’ve killed plenty of genma along the way.. hoping my lord and lady are safe. Why do we bother? ..I ask myself constantly. simmon is behind me.. somewhere back there that foolish girl.. but she might be all I have left in the end. Why do we keep doing it? reki maru and samanoske are at odani; they haven’t killed nobunaga yet, or the genma would be gone by now. Why do we bother? As I look down the long road to odani, I know there are genma out hunting for me. Why do we keep doing it? My lady will miss me when I’m gone.. and I her. Why do we bother?…so why the fuck do we do this, us women of war? ..to serve our lords and ladies? ..to protect them and the land? ..the people? ..our friends? ..family? ..a lost love or one still present? ..to keep the land and its people as they should be.. free from evil?. If someone finds this, take it to my lady; she will know what to do. She’ll explain why we do this.. us women of war. Farewell, my lady.