Another Dutch Resident Here…

Hello everyone… I’m new to this community, so let me share a bit about myself. I am a 29-year-old man from one of the Northern provinces (Frl.) in the Netherlands. My girlfriend and I live together; we have a registered partnership which is nearly identical to marriage. My partner knows that I have submissive tendencies, though she doesn’t possess strong BDSM inclinations herself. However, she can become quite dominant during our sexual encounters, so perhaps things will evolve further down the line. I’ve loved bondage-style play since childhood, although back then we simply called it “police & robbers” or “cowboy & Indians.” It didn’t carry that specific name yet, and there were no erotic feelings attached to it. As I grew older and became more aware of my sexuality, I realized I also experienced arousal when restraining myself. Not sure why, but frequently when reading a book or watching a movie featuring some kind of bondage or kidnapping plot, I would tie myself up in bed at night. Like many others, I often tried to push those quirky feelings aside, yet they always returned, usually stronger than before. When the internet arrived around age 15/16, it seemed like the ultimate library for every conceivable topic. By then my sensations had already been labeled as SM or BDSM feelings, so I began browsing online for info regarding bondage and related interests. I also learned that others practiced self-restraint. I started reading stories about self-bondage and practicing more frequently. Sometimes I would take a break, but after a few months the urge to bind myself again always returned. I often fantasized that I had been abducted or was under the control of a mysterious Mistress. Over time, I purchased more equipment for my personal restraint sessions, such as clamps, gags, and other accessories like the cuff.